Last October I decided to sell my home. Two months later, half of my furniture was sold, the rest of my belongings packed, I was moved into my new apartment, and we closed on the sale of my house.
Or, as I fondly like to say, “I unloaded THE BEAST.”
We all have different versions of the Beast.
The Beast is that energetically negative source or situation that keeps us stuck and not moving forward towards our individual greatness. The Beast can also be something we have wanted and/or always enjoyed (like my house, or a job, or relationship), but now it no longer works for us.
My house wasn’t always the Beast, of course. I loved that house and as many of you know—the view overlooking the reservoir was gorgeous. My favorite time was winter with the unobstructed view of the water—heavenly. As a divorced mom with two kids (plus two dogs) and a mission to keep my kids safe and comfortable in the town we had been living for years, purchasing that home was so important to me 9 years ago. My house was proof to myself that I could own a home and do it all without the assistance of a spouse or family member. Best perk—I never had to ask anyone for permission.
Mission accomplished!
However, a few years ago the house became the Beast. The house morphed from being a place of peace and proud achievements to a source of worry and stress—the gutters, the trees, the endless fall leaves, the snow plowing, and remembering to take out the garbage. My beautiful house felt heavy and draining. Guilt and fear of change kept me from selling the house for the next three years.
I felt stuck, drained and depleted—emotionally and financially. I wanted out, but I was afraid. The awareness that owning my home no longer felt authentic for me became a constant nudge from the Universe. Once both kids were in college, I began to rethink the concept of homeownership FOR ME.
Was I worried about what friends and family might think of me? Yes.
Was owning this house part of the amazing future I was creating? No.
So, with every ounce of courage I had, I unloaded the Beast.
My apartment is a beautiful rental, and I’m happier now without the stresses of homeownership. My current living situation feels lighter, brighter and more free, which is better for me…for now. This apartment is a stepping stone to my next great adventure.
As my own coach reminded me just the other day–it’s ok to change your mind. It’s ok to change your mind in order to create a life that feels more loving, joyous, fun, meaningful and authentic FOR YOU! You are constantly changing, so it makes sense that your choices might change too. And let’s face it–holding on to some old choices can begin to feel uncomfortable and painful.
As we embrace the final months of the year, what has become your Beast?
- A relationship that no longer works for you?
- A job situation that needs tweaking?
- A financial situation that you want fixed?
- A particular worry?
- A conversation that you have been avoiding?
- A void in your life that you are now ready to fill?
What heaviness/challenge/discomfort would you like to address? By not taking action, who are you hurting most?
If this resonates with you, it might be time to release something that feels uncomfortable or challenging for you.
Always with love,
Heather